Have you...

Have you ever felt that feeling
Like the world is out to get you
That emptiness, in need of healing
The insecurity, so untrue

Have you ever felt that feeling
The one where you don’t wanna leave
The truth is so revealing
Its just too hard to believe

Have you ever felt that feeling
When you’re so needed
That life finally becomes appealing
And you realize you’ve succeeded

new years' resolutions

It's the first weekend back at school and everyone's running around, their new years' resolutions in tow, making up for all the things they didn't do in 2007. so as i sit here on my couch, the clock blinking 12:30 on the first friday back, i realize...have they accomplished everything they wanted to? Are they really going to live any differently than the last twelve months of their life? I have never been one to make new years’ resolutions, but after reflecting on 2007 maybe I should be.

Resolutions have always had a negative connotation in my mind. Why is one day better than any other to start living a better life? What does having a resolution mean? How do I know if im “being a better person”? what happens if I don’t stick to my resolution? These are all questions I ask myself when I hear about someone making a new years’ resolution. I feel like so many people have such big goals and dreams on January 1^st that by January 5^th they are burnt out on their resolution. It wouldn’t be called a new years’ resolution if it wasn’t expected to take all year to complete. If I really wanted to change something about my life starting on the first day of the new year, then I would feel I accomplished something if it lasted til thanksgiving. However in today’s society I feel as though if you aren’t on to something bigger and better by valentine’s day then all hope is lost.

This brings me to another thought I had this weekend. If I were in the midst of changing something about my life, I would not expect for it to come overnight. I am not the most stubborn person in the world, yet I know that changing one’s behavior is up there as one of the most gradual of all changes in human nature. Maybe im old-fashioned, maybe I just like to learn the hard way, maybe I just don’t enjoy change…whatever the case may be, I am not about to go at it quickly. So here I am, accepting that change is inevitable, hoping that itll come, just not too fast.

So my new years’ resolutions…to not let the opportunities to change pass me by. To have 2007 become a page in a scrapbook with only the highlights mentioned. To recognize the opportunities to grow and take advantage of them. And most of all, to not keep to my resolutions because I made them on January 1^st but because they are a part of who I want to become in the rest of my life.